So…I’ve been absent for a while.
But for good reason!
I’ve been….medically detained.
No!…not like that.
More like this
I don’t ever like to say that I’m s…i…c…k —-so I’ll just say that for awhile I was…unduly under the weather.
Well, that’s actually not true at all… the reason why I was under the weather is pretty straightforward: I have never taken care of my health.
From birth til now, I’ve just breezed through life, not drinking water (or much of anything), not taking vitamins, not taking any supplements, having a horrible diet where I either ate too little or too much, and in either case what I ate didn’t really contain many vegetables or fruit.
On top of that I’ve been living my stressful life with my boyfriend turned husband since 2008…a husband who tends to stress easily; a husband who is an academic…and we all know that the life of an academic scientist is fraught with bumps, twists, and turns as they find the advisor….the program…the research…the funding…the postdoc…then position of their dreams…it never ends.
Husband: “Baby, now there’s this thing called “tenure”…and I know you’ve helped me so much, you even traipsed through a field full of grasshoppers—your archenemies— to help me with my PhD work…but…I need you to move to the West Coast now…and…I just don’t know if my good looks and rock hard abs are enough to get you to follow me.”
Add on to his academic stress mess, two rough baby deliveries that turned into two rambunctious toddlers, an unexpected but life-saving surgery (in 2012), surviving on only 4 hours of sleep per night since 2011, all while running a business, starting three more, and deciding that this was the perfect time to apply to graduate school.
Me: “Graduate school right now is the best idea ever! It’s not like I’m busy or anything!”
And as a grande finale cherry on top of all of this magical wonder, let’s add mysterious bouts of …dun, dun, dun! : anxiety and panic attacks from unaddressed childhood trauma.
Um… the struggle is actually pretty real.
…so something had to give. And it did…big time.
You: “Um…I’m not sure I’m comfortable with this level of realness and honesty…”
Hey, I’m sure you’ve had some messed up hurts in your past or present, we’re all human. It’s not what’s happened to us, but how we handle it. Read on friends, it gets better:
But, let’s go back to how it got bad first: it was during the ride back to our familial homes in the Midwest; my husband’s uncle had unexpectedly passed away, and I don’t know if that was just the incredibly sad icing on an already sad cake, since we’d just lost my husband’s amazing grandmother just a month or two before, but I guess my body couldn’t take the stress.
After getting to our hotel, I started to feel a little hungry so we ordered a hamburger and fries via room service, and some chicken tenders for the girls, and I had some ginger ale for my always-upset stomach, and then went to bed a while later.
But…I started to feel really WEIRD. I started shaking, uncontrollably. I was SO COLD, I was in the bed, completely covered, with the heat up to 80 degrees, covered in extra covers, with my coat on top, and I could NOT STOP SHAKING.
I just felt really weird; like something was really wrong. My heart was palpitating, I couldn’t breathe right (I have asthma) but it didn’t feel like an asthma attack. And just mentally… neurologically, something was really really wrong, I felt faint, but not really. There, but not really. Spacey, but hyperaware; it was horrible and scary because I didn’t know what was happening: “Am I having a heart attack?” “Am I having a panic attack?” “Am I dying?”
To make an already pretty long story…less long, I survived.
And many blood tests later, my doctor determined that I was:
1-Nutrient deficient: my body was not absorbing nutrients
2-Vitamin deficient: low on a lot of essential vitamins
As well as suffering from:
4- Adrenal fatigue/failure (stress)
5- Leaky gut
6-Possible candida overgrowth in gut
7- Celiac’s disease, which for me causes neurological issues
9- Eighteen cavities (I had poor dental care as a child and my dentist (colloquially) said there are 2 types of people: those prone to gum disease, and those prone to cavities; I’m prone to cavities) and my old silver cavities need to be redone bc they are toxic
10- and more!
So how have I started to treat these issues and reverse the damage that I’ve unknowingly inflicted upon my body?
Stay tuned so you can learn from my mistakes, and catch things before they go as far as my issues did.
Back and better than ever ^_^ yeah!!!!
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